Katy

Dear God it's been forever since I've updated. This semester is non stop fun....I can't take it anymore. I'm going to try to start updating a little more, but finals are coming up soon...and now the holidays so we're gonna get slammed at work. ugh.

I wanted to let everyone know that I got my tattoo, not the cross I talked about earlier. Too expensive. I ended up getting "scars/cuts" on my left wrist. This is symbolic in the way that our open wounds allow everyone to see who we are inside, and what we've been through in our lives. I love it. I got it this past weds. It's amazing. Small yet beautiful.

Just wanted to drop by...and let you guys know I'm still here. Miss you all!

This past week was the worst ever. except one thing went right, that was the My Chemical Romance concert.  It rocked!! Gerard is amazing, and absolutely hot when he's sweating...*drools*  My friend Stella had the best time!

What sucked about this week was that we found out monday that another of our family friend's passed away last Saturday. He had been suffereing from cancer for 8 years on and off. He had just gotten a clean bill of health, and Saturday morning he passed away.  I guess he got up walked around that morning, but then got tired again and went back to bed, but never woke up.

Jim, I know your up there playing the "heavenly" slots...better be winning some big bucks. You are a guardian angel to me. My teddy bear I miss you!

*sigh* I guess it's true. When it rains, it pours.

Miss all of you. Sorry I can't update as much, but like I've said a billion times, this semester is jammed packed. I'm trying to catch up!

Hey!!!

I can't believe it, I haven't updated in like a week.  School has been nuts right now. Thank God I got a break for a couple days, no homework YAY! It's so much stuff, but I love it and I guess I wouldn't have it any other way.

Music theory, now that's a crazy class. We're going to be analyzing Beethoven's 8th&9th symphony. I have to get the sheet music that has every instrument on there. How cool is that?!?!?!

I also started my voice lessons last Friday. Anna is a great teacher, and I'm very happy that she is my voice teacher. She's tough, but, she's amazing. I love it so far, and I've only had two classes.

Tomorrow night...I'm seeing My Chemical Romance with my friend Stella. I'm so psyched. GAH!!! I can't wait!!!!!

so..now I have something to say. I will only say this though. I did tonight, the one thing I promised myself I would never do again. Not because of feelings I have, but because of wanting to remember what it felt like, why I did it in the first place. And to tell you the truth, it still feels as good as when I did it the first time...."the scars remind us......"

I swear I have more homework in a week than I did in a month of High School. I'm going crazy.  I can't do it....too much of Harmonic Minors, Melodic Minors, intervals. Oh and then there's piano, writing, and more intervals and scales.

*bangs head on desk repeatedly*

Oh well, it's my major, and my love. I'll do it....and I'll learn it...and love it!

So, two years now that I've had my beautiful car. *sigh*...it seems like yesterday I was at the lot picking her out...hahaha....such a good car too. *pets it*  I bought her a seat cover...has a skull on it. The box said it's the Grim Reaper, but he really doesn't look like the Grim Reaper...whatever..it's cool.

My other big issue I'm thinking over right now is I'm getting my first tattoo hopefully in the next couple months. I want it on my forearm, and it's a cross for sure. But...here's the two ideas I'm thinking of:

1.  Gothic style cross with skull on there. Vines w/thorns wrapped around the middle section of cross, blood dripping down. Kind of representing, the crucifiction of Jesus, and death.  My religion and beliefs kinda mixed together.

2.  Gothic style cross but only with the vines and thorns...blood dripping.  This represents mainly my religion. (my mom came up with this one)

I could always put the skull somewhere else, but I don't know. *sigh*

Well, for now i"m gonna work on my writing assignment. let me know which one you guys think is better.

I just wanted to tell everyone that I'm sorry I haven't been posting or commenting as much. It isn't that I don't want to, or am not reading your entries. I am...and i'm trying to catch up with all of you. This semester is just so hetic. Music theory litterally takes up every spare time that I have. I know a few have removed me from friend's lists...I'm sorry. I hope you understand why I haven't been on.

I am reading, even though I'm not commenting. I love you all...so I'll be on when I can..and definately comment as much as possible. Or that all these damn intervals and scales will allow me.

 

Labor day weekend. Meant for relaxation...BBQ's with the family....and just doing nothing.

Right....

Homework is the first thing on my to-do list which I have managed to skip over until tonight. I have to do it. Old Navy has been my life the past couple days, and also listening to my new Cd's. YAY!

Well, one CD isn't "new" persay. I finally got Green Day's American Idiot....I love it. Wake me when September Ends is such a great song...it's my 2nd favorite from the album. 

I got the QAF season 5 soundtrack...mostly cuz Personal Jesus by Marilyn Manson is on there....and I just love that scene that it goes to. hehe...but really the soundtrack is really good. So far, Season 3 and Season 5 are my favorite seasons and soundtracks.

It's amazing...the show ended almost a month ago, and I still giggle when I hear songs that were on the show. Carolyn was behind a "kinnetic" truck and had to call me and tell me about it. This show will always be apart of us...how cool is that??

Alrighty..off to do 9 pages of scales....writing, fixing, etc.

My God school is really taking up all my time.  I haven't updated for a few days.

My classes are so cool. I'm learning everything and anything about music. I'm learning piano, tons and tons of theory, cool songs with choir. And hopefully soon I'll be starting my private voice lessons, which will end with a recital at the end of the semester.

I'm keeping busy and it's wearing me out. I have lots of homework, plus work. I'm beat. But hopefully my body will get use to this and I won't feel as run down in the coming weeks.

Gas....ah yes...the thing that fuels my car. I'm putting on about 40-50 miles on my car a day. Which may not seem like a lot to some, but for me that's a big deal. Now with gas prices going up because of wonderful Katrina....this is going to be great. I'm gonna go broke. But all those poor people in LA...my god...it's scary.

Well, off to do homework. Later!

Wow...it's been a while since I updated.

Well, the exciting is that my life is boring.....grrrrrrrrrrr.

School...ah school...came back and bit me in the ass. Yep..I'm back....and yippe fucking do. Thank God it's all my music classes, so yeah...but shit this stuff is going deeper than ever...which is good, cuz that's what I want, but still. I'm gonna go overboard all the theory and crap.

So...that's the big exciting thing this week. YAY....bleh

 

So..yeah....I ended up going to the concert....IT FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!!!!!

30 seconds to mars and H2O opened for the Used. H2O is a band from the Hard Core NYC scene...so it was a little different, but they are really good. 30 seconds to mars...not a huge fan of theirs, but they are really good live.

What can I say about the Used that I haven't already said the other two times I've seen them. They rock...that's all there is to it. They opened with Take it Away, and ended with Sound Effects and Overdramatics....which is my favorite song on the album. They played I Caught Fire, Belimic...all the good songs...which they don't really have any bad songs.

My dad drove me up there, and went with me. He had a good time, 3rd time seeing the Used for him to. He loves just going to listen to the music...we didn't get home till 1:30am...we drove to and back from Phoenix. But it was so worth it.

Of course who could go to a Used concert and not have a cool story to tell. So yeah, Bert was going on about how they've been to Arizona a lot, and how great of a crowd we are. Then he started thanking the fans, well while he was doing that some chick flashed him...he's all "hello" and then he said" you aren't even legal yet. Don't be flashing 16 year old titties..put them back until your legal." I was laughing so hard. Then he's all, "as I was saying before I was so rudely interuppted by 16 yr old titties"....hahaha..I just thought that was hysterical.

Anywho..I rocked out, got a shirt, and had a great time! Wish everyone was there with me.

 

Tonight is the Used concert. I hope that I can go. I think my dad's gonna go with me. He's been to see them with me twice already, and he does like them...so we'll see.

I'll let you guys know!

I JUST WON A PAIR OF TICKETS TO GO SEE THE USED THIS SUNDAY IN PHOENIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG...OMG....the thing is...how am I going to get there????????.......who am I gonna take with me????? AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I'm getting $500 for my medical claim for the car accident. I didn't even want money, but my parents told the claim people, and well she wanted to settled. She offered the 500 hundred, and I said yes. Mom and dad said I should've talked to them first, and then maybe tried to get more, but I'm 19. I have to make these decisions on my own, and if I make a mistake I learn from them. Whiplash can come back and haunt you, I know, but for right now I'm okay.

School starts a week from tomorrow. Thank goodness I finally have some guidance on the choir and voice training. My training class I set up with the teacher, which I kinda figured since it's one-on-one teaching.  So hopefully now I don't have to change my availability for work.

I'm tired.......

It's been a few days since I've updated....that's mostly because life sucks right now.

Yesterday was Richard's memorial. Just when I thought I ran out of tears, 5,000 more came flowing out. I still can't believe he's gone. I think it's hit me hardest too because he's my dad's age, and I just can't see my mom without my dad. Yeah they disagree, argue, but they still love each other. I came home from work today, and everything was fine. One little thing set my dad off, and I went outside. I couldn't stand to see it. I just kept thinking about Ilyce and how she would love to be able to argue with Richard. *sigh* Life sucks....and I can't seem to face it.

Also, I have nothing to do tonight. My show is gone. I'm not waiting for the DVR to kick in and record it....and I don't think I'm gonna make it without that. QAF is my world....but now my world is gone.

I'm gonna go and relax, work tomorrow. School starts in a week and a half. yipee fucking do.

 

I swear to God I have the greatest luck in the world. *sigh*

My dad and I were coming home from running errands, we had just gotten the mail, which I was looking at, when we got rear-ended at the light. It's my dad's car this time, not mine. *sigh*

We were in a line, and we started inching forward then my dad stopped. Well, the lady behind us must've not realized we stopped and hit us. Not once...but TWICE! My head hit the headrest like twice, so now I have whiplash. Thank God not to severe, but it hurts to look down. By the time I realized what happend my dad was already cussing up a storm while getting out of the car. This little old lady(and i know what the hell is it with me and little old ladies?) get's out of the car and was like...I thought you were moving..blah blah blah. There was a fire fighter guy a couple cars back and called the cops for us. The irony was that this happend right by my mom's work. Well, we had groceries in the car, and so after the lady called me sweetie, and was like "oh the damage isn't too bad".....grrrrrr....I ran to get my mom's car.

Oh was she thrilled..............I thought she was gonna pick up the chair in the lobby and throw it out a window...which for her would've been amazing. So got my mom's car...went back over the scene...cops were there...yadda fucking yadda. We look at the damage of my dad's bumper...oh it's bent down...spaces between the frame/bumper....Lady was pointing it out to me...Thank you I can see better than you. Then she asked "are you sure that wasn't there before?" Well I nearly committed bloody murder by this time...and said"NO...we know every dent and scratch.....this was fine." And she's all "me too sweetie...I know my car" Apparantly not...and if she called me sweetie one more time...POW....and then I'd be charged with assult...which I wanted to avoid.

Went to urgent care afterwards...got checked out. Dad then told me that the first thing she said to him was "did you back into me?" Yes...while were trying to move forward my father decided to see how going backwards would be.....

Found out she's two years older than my grandma, so like 83...just lost her husband last week. Yeah, sorry but my friend just lost her husband too, and were not gonna say "oh don't worry about it, we understand"...you hit us..that's all there is too it.

*sigh*...sorry this is so long. But yeah........called into work, I'm gonna ice my neck for the next couple days....it hurts.

Thanks for letting me rant.

*cries really hard*

OMG....my show...is gone forever. What am I going to do on Sunday nights now????? *sniff* I'm not going to make it...I know it. There's nothing to live for.

I literally started crying during the very last Brian/Justin scene...which by the way was beautiful and well done. I have to say I'm not mad with the ending...it's totally them. They'd never want to sacrafice anything or stop being who they are just so someone will love them. They didn't break up, Justin just went to start a career. A wonderful open ending for the fans....we can decide what happens.

The end with Brian dancing alone, now that is significant. He's finally content, he doesn't need anyone else, he's found his one. *sigh* I love it....

Ted finding Blake again, I knew it would happen. They were destined to be together. I'm glad for Ted. Then Emmett running into a classmate..haha...now that is awesome.

But throughout this whole ending, the best scene had to be Brian with Gus. hahahaha....it's just too cute.

Goodbye QAF, it sucks that your gone. But like everything good things must come to an end.

It's off to camp I go....yay! I was excited, but with Richard's passing...Ilyece told me to go, but still. I feel like I need to be home in case she needs anything. Were all doing a little better, but it's still hurting.

See you all on Saturday night. And I'll see Aly and Monika tomorrow! ^_^

I just got home from hanging out with Carolyn, Lee and Anthony. We had a fun time. Lee and Anthony make such a cute couple....

My mom was sitting in the garage, and I was like "what's up? Why are you waiting for me?" She looks me straight in the eye as I sit down next to her and says "Richard passed away today." I sat there stunned, and I've been crying for the last 30 minutes, everytime I feel like I can stop, I start all over again.

Richard is Ilyece's husband(Ilyece is my mom's best friend. I love her so much, their our extended family), who has been fighting for two months on dialysis, and his liver started shutting down, he got a blood infection from the hospital. They thought last week that he wasn't going to make it. He woke up all of a sudden, and then yesterday he started loosing. It was almost as if he wanted to say goodbye to his wife, and children. His mom and sis made it to see him before he passed away I believe. He passed away at 2:15 this morning. He's been inchoerant for awhile now, not really knowing what was going on around him. Mom said that when Ilyece called to tell her, she said that she was calm. Almost glad he wasn't suffering anymore. My mom felt that way too, I feel it too, but I can't picture him gone. It's a joke to me, but I know it's not. Who's gonna pick on me now? Or wear that shirt that he and my dad both have..accidentally of course. It's gonna be wierd. I never saw him that much, but I always knew he was there, and I talked to him on the phone. But I have to be strong, so that Ilyece will make it through.

If I smile and don't believe, soon I know I'll wake from this dream.............

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping, Hello I'm still here, all that left of yesterday..............

I just finished Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.......dear God I really don't think I wanna read number 6 the way after I feel about the ending of this one. *sigh*....but I'm so curious. I'll start it tonight. It was an ending I really wasn't expecting, but it answered so much!

I haven't updated in a few days...reason being..work. Yeah..it's always work. I can't wait till my excuse is school...cuz then...oh well it's still keeping me busy. I've worked every day this week except for monday. But I want to make all the money I can before school starts. I'll be cutting my hours quite a bit. argh.....I hate that.

My friend Jeff, the one who's a drag queen at one of our local clubs, his peformance is the night of the Tucson Girls Chorus camp concert. I've asked everyone i know, even my parents, what I should do....and they all said the same thing, go see Jeff. I mean, I'll only miss the family picnic, and final concert. I wanna see Jeff so bad...I met his boyfriend yesterday. Adorable couple they are. oh yes....very cute. Their gonna perform together....*sigh*...it's so cool. What should I do???

Alright...here I go...I'm gonna start Year 6..........

511 rocked my world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Only two eps left. *cries* How am I gonna live without my QAF??????????????

*breaksdown*

"You bought this? This palace?"

"For my prince"*gushes madly at this line*

 

These past couple days have just been...wierd. I don't know how to explain it except...wierd. I don't feel like myself, dad says I'm depressed. But how can I be depressed when I'm on anti-depressants? I should be happy! :D *grumbles*

Work...ah yes, it's been boring and slow, and sometimes fun. It's starting to pick up with school coming up, everyones getting their new clothes. But some of this stuff...hahaha...yeah...I couldn't even picture my grandma in some of this stuff. I just buy denim and sometimes one of the lace layering shirts we have...as long as it's something I would wear I buy it. The 80's track suit look is coming back. It's kinda freaking me out. The 80's didn't exactly have the greatest fashion sense....so yeah..we're going back to that? Dear God help us all.

I was talking with one of my friends at work last night, were both Harry Potter fans, and she said that she's not done with yr 6 yet. I on the other hand...got year 5&6 for my birthday from Alanna. I just finished yr 4. *hangs head in shame* I'm so behind...but what my friend told me about yr 5....I think I'll read slower. I don't know what happens....only that it's sad. Then my hygenist the other day told me that she didn't like the end of yr 6...OMG....I have nothing to look forward to. *sigh* Great...oh great!

Yeah..so I'm gonna go and read more of yr 5.